Rica Peralejo opened up about her experience suffering from miscarriage for the third time.
As a celebrity mom and vlogger, Rica Peralejo has always been generous about sharing updates on her family life as well as giving advice and sharing life lessons with her one million followers on Instagram.
Last July 24, the former actress uploaded a 28-minute vlog titled “I Was Positive,” where she revealed what happened to her earlier this year.
Rica shared that this year has been very challenging for her because of two things: her older sister’s death and the defeat of the leader she looks up to.
“2022 has been quite a year for me because this is not exactly the first pain of the year. This is also the year I lost my eldest sister that I’m very, very close to. She died in April. This is also when Ma’am Leni (Robredo) lost the election. So that’s another kind of grief…. sabi ko ang sakit naman ng taon na ito,may dalawa akong miracles na hindi nangyari,” she said.
Rica went on to share that she suffered from miscarriage, saying she decided to share it with her followers to make herself “feel a little less alone.”
“Okay the announcement is I was positive. Positive not for COVID thankfully, and the other good news is that I was positive for pregnancy. So yay happy good news. But the bad news there is I was positive. That means I no longer am. Pasensya na kayo medyo sad yung news ko today,” she said.
“And I only really decided to share it because I find it that when I share my vulnerabilities and my struggles with my viewers, nakaka-relate kayo sa akin and somehow siguro meron siyang effect na parang yung pag nakikinig din ako nagkuwento ng iba, it makes me feel a little less alone. I know it’s sad, I know that there is grief in our pain but when we hear others share their story, di ba kahit papano natutulungan ka na ‘hindi naman pala ako mag-isa.’ As always, that has been my goal on my channel,” she added.
The 41-year-old actress had already experienced miscarriages twice before, the first one after she gave birth to her first child. Rica revealed undergoing a period of depression. This time, she decided to delay announcing the news to her husband until Father’s Day last June.
“The both of us already know the drill na pag nabubuntis ako hidni kami puwedeng agad agad i-embrace yung pregnancy as though it was going to happen because we know that there is a possibility of losing that. Very tricky kasi you want to have faith and you want to believe that there is life. Kasi pagka masyadong mong in-embrace, magiging masakit naman kung saka-sakaling yung news na makuha mo ay opposite sa inaasahan mo,” she recalled.
Rica recalled why she did not expect to get pregnant this year, sharing how she and her husband already accepted the fact that she could no longer get pregnant.
“So a little before Father’s Day I found out that I was pregnant. This one was quite different because I’m already 41 and so when I miss my period sabi ko, ‘Hala! Nag-start na ako ng pre-menopausal symptoms (laughs).’ Plus the fact that I took a pregnancy test and nag negative siya. Pero something in me made me want to check. After about a week, I did another pregnancy test and ayun na, nag-positive na siya. I was in disbelief,” she said.
“Ito siguro yung first time na hindi kami nag-ta-try pero merong nakalusot. In fact, prior to this accident, my husband and I were talking about the different options of not getting pregnant anymore. Kasi we were feeling na nga the age and tinatanggap na rin namin na baka naman talagang God really just has two kids for us and we were very, very happy already. So medyo surprise talaga yun,” she added.
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Rica told her followers that she has become more accepting this time around, saying she feels “calmer and more peaceful” about her experience and that God “has prepared” her for it.
“Siguro idi-differentiate ko ‘yung tatlong experience ko ng miscarriage, ‘yung first ko was shock that led me to depression, ‘yung pangalawa ko feeling ko ang unfair, ‘Lord bakit mo hinayaan itong mangyari sa akin?’ Tapos feeling ko ang daya daya. I must admit, nagkaroon din ako ng tampo kay Lord na bakit mo ito hinahayaang mangyari sa akin? For this third one, parang feeling ko I’m calmer and more peaceful about it,” she said.
“Parang God has prepared my heart better this time. It’s more of like, ‘Lord, tulungan mo na lang ako i-manage ang pain.’ Ayoko na sana madaanan yung ganung sobra ang sakit of physical pain before. But there is still a feeling of loss and grief. Meron pa rin. Hindi ko mapigilang umasa eh kasi kahit naman alam kong hindi na ito mangyari, every time na pupunta ako for ultrasound at titingnan ko yung monitor, meron pa rin akong one percent in me na feeling ko umaasa na may makitang buhay dun sa screen,” she added.
Rica married pastor Joseph Bonifacio in 2010. The couple have two sons named Philip and Manu.