Adrian Lindayag recalls being a closeted gay: ‘I grew up hating myself’

Rhea Manila Santos

After starring in the first Filipino BL movie The Boy Foretold By The Stars which was released last December, Adrian Lindayag said he is happy to reprise his role as straight A student Dominic in the new series Love Beneath The Stars which starts streaming for free this month on <a href='https://iwanttfc.com' target='_blank'>iWantTFC</a>.“Sobra akong excited ulit kasi it’s been a long time coming. Matagal na nating hinihintay na makita yung mga sarili natin sa pelikula at sa TV na na-i-in love. Matagal ng present ang LGBT sa pelikula at sa TV pero parang hindi sila nabibigyan ng rom-com at kilig story. Hinahanap ko yun kasi tayong mga Pinoy mahilig tayo sa mga kilig eh di ba? Laking Star Cinema tayong lahat and inaabangan natin sa mga sinehan yung mga kilig stories na yan. And na-sa-sad ako growing up na hindi ko napapanuod yung sarili ko na kinikilig. And now kinikilabutan ako pag merong nag-ko-comment at nag-me-message na mga fans na finally nakikita na nila yung sarili nila sa pelikula at sa TV, na puwede rin sila magka-love story,” he said.<a href='https://push.abs-cbn.com/2020/12/10/fresh-scoops/exclusive-mmff-actor-adrian-lindayag-reveals-crus-190285' target='_blank'>READ: EXCLUSIVE: MMFF actor Adrian Lindayag reveals crush on Robi Domingo: ‘Because what’s not to love?’</a>Before he came out to his family when he was younger, Adrian revealed his struggle with homosexuality.“Yung faith ko marami ng pinagdaanan yan. I grew up in a conservative Catholic family. So I grew up hating myself because ayokong maramdaman yung mga natural na nararamdaman ko. I don’t want to be attracted to boys kasi bawal siya. Narinig ko na bawal yun. So I grew up hating myself and nung nag-college ako sa La Salle, dun ko natutunan yung iba’t ibang faith, iba’t ibang paniniwala sa mundo. Dun ako mas naging liberal and naging atheist ako actually at that time. tapos it didn’t work out kasi fundamentally I’m a very spiritual person,” he recalled.<a href='https://push.abs-cbn.com/2021/2/4/fresh-scoops/mmff-entry-the-boy-foretold-by-the-stars-to-cont-191503' target='_blank'>READ: MMFF entry ‘The Boy Foretold by The Stars’ to continue as limited series</a>Just like his role as Dominic in Love Beneath The Stars, Adrian said it is his relationship with God that has helped him understand himself more.“So now umabot na ako sa pag-merge ko ng truth ko as a person and ng relationship ko with God and spirituality. Because God is love and love is to honor God, we have to understand that if only I had the choice, I would just choose to be straight kasi mas madali maging straight. But I wasn’t born that way. I have these natural urges. Eh bakla ako eh, may feminine side ako and I also have a masculine side and I embrace all those qualities about me and I think yung purpose ko is to live out my truth so that I can show other people na sila din they can live their truth. As long as wala kang natatapakan at nasasaktan na ibang tao, yan yung purpose mo sa mundo,” he said.<a href='https://push.abs-cbn.com/2021/1/6/videos/adrian-lindayag-mas-maging-open-tayo-sa-pag-cast-190884' target='_blank'>WATCH: Adrian Lindayag: ‘Mas maging open tayo sa pag-cast ng real LGBT actors’ | PUSH Bets Highlights</a>Watch the <a href='https://iwanttfc.com' target='_blank'>iWantTFC</a> original series Love Beneath the Stars every Monday starting August 16. Written and directed by Dolly Dulu and stars Adrian Lindayag, Keann Johnson, Nikki Valdez, Agot Isidro, Romnick Sarmenta, Victor Silayan, and Iyah Mina.

Before he came out to his family when he was younger, Adrian revealed his struggle with homosexuality.“Yung faith ko marami ng pinagdaanan yan. I grew up in a conservative Catholic family. So I grew up hating myself because ayokong maramdaman yung mga natural na nararamdaman ko. I don’t want to be attracted to boys kasi bawal siya. Narinig ko na bawal yun. So I grew up hating myself and nung nag-college ako sa La Salle, dun ko natutunan yung iba’t ibang faith, iba’t ibang paniniwala sa mundo. Dun ako mas naging liberal and naging atheist ako actually at that time. tapos it didn’t work out kasi fundamentally I’m a very spiritual person,” he recalled.<a href='https://push.abs-cbn.com/2021/2/4/fresh-scoops/mmff-entry-the-boy-foretold-by-the-stars-to-cont-191503' target='_blank'>READ: MMFF entry ‘The Boy Foretold by The Stars’ to continue as limited series</a>Just like his role as Dominic in Love Beneath The Stars, Adrian said it is his relationship with God that has helped him understand himself more.“So now umabot na ako sa pag-merge ko ng truth ko as a person and ng relationship ko with God and spirituality. Because God is love and love is to honor God, we have to understand that if only I had the choice, I would just choose to be straight kasi mas madali maging straight. But I wasn’t born that way. I have these natural urges. Eh bakla ako eh, may feminine side ako and I also have a masculine side and I embrace all those qualities about me and I think yung purpose ko is to live out my truth so that I can show other people na sila din they can live their truth. As long as wala kang natatapakan at nasasaktan na ibang tao, yan yung purpose mo sa mundo,” he said.<a href='https://push.abs-cbn.com/2021/1/6/videos/adrian-lindayag-mas-maging-open-tayo-sa-pag-cast-190884' target='_blank'>WATCH: Adrian Lindayag: ‘Mas maging open tayo sa pag-cast ng real LGBT actors’ | PUSH Bets Highlights</a>Watch the <a href='https://iwanttfc.com' target='_blank'>iWantTFC</a> original series Love Beneath the Stars every Monday starting August 16. Written and directed by Dolly Dulu and stars Adrian Lindayag, Keann Johnson, Nikki Valdez, Agot Isidro, Romnick Sarmenta, Victor Silayan, and Iyah Mina.

After starring in the first Filipino BL movie The Boy Foretold By The Stars which was released last December, Adrian Lindayag said he is happy to reprise his role as straight A student Dominic in the new series Love Beneath The Stars which starts streaming for free this month on <a href='https://iwanttfc.com' target='_blank'>iWantTFC</a>.“Sobra akong excited ulit kasi it’s been a long time coming. Matagal na nating hinihintay na makita yung mga sarili natin sa pelikula at sa TV na na-i-in love. Matagal ng present ang LGBT sa pelikula at sa TV pero parang hindi sila nabibigyan ng rom-com at kilig story. Hinahanap ko yun kasi tayong mga Pinoy mahilig tayo sa mga kilig eh di ba? Laking Star Cinema tayong lahat and inaabangan natin sa mga sinehan yung mga kilig stories na yan. And na-sa-sad ako growing up na hindi ko napapanuod yung sarili ko na kinikilig. And now kinikilabutan ako pag merong nag-ko-comment at nag-me-message na mga fans na finally nakikita na nila yung sarili nila sa pelikula at sa TV, na puwede rin sila magka-love story,” he said.<a href='https://push.abs-cbn.com/2020/12/10/fresh-scoops/exclusive-mmff-actor-adrian-lindayag-reveals-crus-190285' target='_blank'>READ: EXCLUSIVE: MMFF actor Adrian Lindayag reveals crush on Robi Domingo: ‘Because what’s not to love?’</a>

‘Love Under the Star’s star Adrian Lindayag reveals wanting to become a straight man at one point in his life. 

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