Ibinahagi ng direktor na si Jason Paul Laxamana ang kanyang pinagdaanan matapos magpositibo sa COVID-19 kamakailan.
Sa isang Facebook post, ibinahagi ng direktor sa likod ng pelikulang Between Maybes kung paano lumala ang dinanas niya sa nasabing sakit.
Pagbabahagi ni JP, buong pag-aakala niya ay gumaling na siya sa naturang sakit matapos umayos ang pakiramdam kasunod ng kanyang pag-inom ng ilang gamot.
“The symptoms were mild at first. I've had worse bacterial/viral infections in the past. I thought the peak of my sickness was when I had a fever accompanied by chills. All it took was a tablet of paracetamol and, voila, I woke up the next day feeling fine,” ani JP.
Ngunit dumating ang hindi niya inaasahan — nakaramdam si direk JP ng pananakip sa kanyang dibdib.
“But then I noticed something happening inside my chest. It was getting hard to breath. Inhaling deeply was becoming challenging, as it either triggered an itch in the chest, resulting in coughing; or no matter how deep I inhaled, I didn't feel I was getting enough air in my lungs,” aniya.
Dahil mayroon umano siyang obstructive sleep apnea, ikinatakot ni Direk JP ang pagtulog.
“I was afraid to sleep. I kept thinking of my severe obstructive sleep apnea, which, when partnered with difficulty in breathing, can only result in death as I sleep. Not to mention my fatness,” ani Direk JP.
“There were nights I found myself teary-eyed—no, crying—in bed in the dark; how, if I fail to wake up, no one will find out until my body is maybe a one-week-old corpse already. Must be the lack of air in my system,” dagdag pa niya.
Ang naging karanasan naman umano nito sa minsang pagtangkang kitilin ang kanyang sariling buhay noon ay naging dahilan upang mawala ang takot niya sa ideya na mawala ang kanyang buhay.
“But there were days I found myself unshaken by the thought of dying. As a suicide attempt survivor, a decade ago, being intimate with the idea of death is a scenario I am very much familiar with,” ani JP.
Sa kung paano niya nalampasan ang hirap na dinanas niya, pagbabahagi nito: “After letting all the drama out of my system, I just found myself going through the motions. Hard to breathe? Stay still and avoid moving a lot. Gasping for air while sleeping? Deal with it and sleep again if awakened. Night sweats? Sleep with a towel over your pillow.”
Nakatulong din umano kay JP ang panonood ng iba’t-ibang programa online.
“I was very close to having myself admitted in a state-run COVID facility, but the uncertainty of the existence of Wi-Fi in those places prevented me from calling the barangay health workers. After all, I was alternately binge-watching The World of the Married and Attack on Titan while suffering,” aniya.
Samantala, mas maayos na umano ngayon ang kanyang pakiramdam kumpara noong mga nakaraang araw.
“Last morning, however, I woke up with freer airways. Inhaling deeply is now possible, albeit I still have thick mucus in my chest. I feel more energetic now, though the night sweats still haunt me midsleep. Either they're part of the covid experience, or summer nights are just getting hotter. My sense of taste is back,” ani JP.
Pinasalamatan din ng Just A Stranger director ang lahat ng taong tumulong sa kanya.
“I guess the worst is over for me. Thank you to friends and family who sent me stuff to keep me nourished during my quarantine,” sambit pa niya.
Kung ikaw ay nakararanas ng depresyon o nangangailangan ng makakausap kaugnay sa iyong mental health, maaaring dumulong sa Natasha Goulbourn Foundation upang makipag-unay sa taong handang makinig sa iyo.
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