Days after she was removed from the MMFF Executive Committee because of her proposal to transfer the Metro Manila Film Festival (MMFF) to the Film Development Council of the Philippines (FDCP) of which she is the chairwoman, Liza Diño-Seguerra shared her own personal struggles through her social media accounts last July 28.
WHEN DEPRESSION MET ANXIETY
(Yes, it's a Love Story)
Nagugulat pa rin ako pag lumalabas ng terrace namin ang asawa ko, di pa ko sanay. On top of that, naghilamos at nagtoothbrush pa. Yup, effort yun promise! Buti na lang di siya bad breath,
It's been two days since I finally found the strength to speak up about my personal struggles. And for the first time, yesterday, nawala ang sakit ng tyan ko. Nakatulog ako nang maayos. My humble win today is that I was finally able to deal with and manage my ANXIETY.
Anxiety is a normal emotion. It’s our brain’s way of reacting to stress. But when the feeling of anxiety has become extreme and interferes with our lives, then it becomes a disorder.
Anxiety comes in all shapes and forms because we respond to stress in different ways. Some people react to anxiety "negatively" by procrastinating, overthinking and not accomplishing things but others react "positively" by being driven, productive, and working non-stop. The anxiety propels you forward rather than leave you frozen in fear. In other words, someone with anxiety might experience the symptoms like worrying a lot, restlessness, or something physical like stomach pains, but still gets through life every single day.
This is called high functioning anxiety.
And this is what I have been experiencing.
I am functioning. I am productive. Minsan nga sobra-sobra pa. But inside...I am worrying, feeling stressed, and losing sleep.
I've been suffering from anxiety attacks the past three weeks: Stomach pains--That feeling when your tummy is in knots tapos para kang masusuka, clammy hands na laging malamig at pasmado, lack of sleep and yung utak mo na hindi mapahinga kahit wala ka nang ginagawa.
These anxiety attacks used to be sporadic, but lately, it's become chronic because as an empath, I have the natural tendency to absorb all the negativity and without a venue for release, it can be very exhausting.
I needed positivity to find some balance.
We all need that validation in our moments of doubt, and to see my husband feeling better again today, with his cute, freshly washed face, and his smile na bagong toothbrush is the best validation for me. I want to be present for him as much as he has been there for me. And the only way I can be present is if I feel OK. Not feeling anxious, not feeling stressed but ready to take on challenges as they come.
It feels good to say Im OK, finally.
Thank you, my love, for being my strength.
Thank you, my Amara, for being mommy's motivator.
And sa inyong lahat who reached out and sent your words of comfort, maraming maraming salamat.
Nakakabuhay. Nakakalakas ng loob.
YES. Today is a brand new day.
Liza Diño got officially married to Ice Seguerra in San Francisco in 2014. The couple held a “symbolic” wedding in the country in January 2015.