Gretchen Ho opened up for the first time about her experience with anxiety. The Kapamilya host said that she decided to share her story with the hope that it could somehow aid people who are also going through anxiety at present amid the global health crisis.
"Hindi naman ako mahilig mag-share nang sobrang personal online. Usually offline hehe. Pero baka makatulong itong kwento ko sa mga nakakaramdam ng anxiety sa ganitong panahon," she said in a video she posted on her Instagram on Monday, April 13.
Gretchen relayed that she used to overwork herself that there came a point that she had an anxiety attack.
Hindi naman ako mahilig magshare nang sobrang personal online. Usually offline hehe. Pero baka makatulong itong kwento ko sa mga nakakaramdam ng anxiety sa ganitong panahon. This was my Black Saturday sharing for an online retreat. Here is my personal experience of anxiety, trying to deal with the “unknown” and how I got out of it. Experiencing anxiety, especially at this time, is a normal thing. What we have to do is to pause, reflect on it, understand it, pray to the Lord about it and seek help when needed. Para sa mga gustong mag online retreat, naka upload pa rin ang mga video sa “Paghilom: An Online Holy Week Retreat for the Youth with Fr Soc Villegas” FB Page. Kudos and great job to the team behind it 👍🏻
"Dahil ang ang dami ko pong worries, ang dami ko pong iniisip, parang nakaramdam po ako ng kakaibang pagod. Nag-palpitate 'yung arms ko, legs ko, sumakit 'yung batok ko," she shared.
She was diagnosed with anxiety at that time and she considered it as a wake up call from God.
"I think that was God's wake up call for me and I asked myself why am I working this hard? Am I really doing this for His glory, for His purpose? Or am I doing it for myself? And I realized I was doing it, I was exerting that effort, because of my insecurities. Feeling ko kapag work ako nang work, lagay ako ng effort, that would push my career forward," she stated.
The television host added that she realized that everything is not within in her control and that she should trust God more.
"I was reminded by God that I should not place my worth in what other people thought of me but [instead] based it on His love for me," she stated.