Nadine Lustre opened up about her fears during the pandemic, admitting that she reached the lowest point of her life this year.
According to the 27-year-old actress, not getting much projects brought her fears of the possibility that she might become a ‘has been’ or a person “no longer of any significance.”
“So, we were all locked in, right? And then I just came from months of like stress, pressure, and all that. I wasn’t getting as much projects. So I had not much work. I was really struggling,” Nadine said, talking to Angie Mead King and Debbie Then in a new vlog.
She added: “I was thinking to myself na parang sh**’ wala akong work so I might, you know, eventually be a ‘has been’ or you know, that kind of thing.”
While such thoughts entered her head, Nadine said she had a lot of time to think about what she really wants by taking things slow.
“During the pandemic, I had a lot of time to think about what it is that I really want and then a lot of things happened. I would have conversations with myself and I would always tell myself to just you know, ‘Take your time. There’s no rush. The world’s not going to end tomorrow’,” she said.
Getting bashed online from time to time, Nadine said she also got to realize that she should not look for validation from other people.
“But one of the things that I really learned is to just be me and not look for validation from other people and to just do whatever it is that I want to do. If I don’t have projects, then that’s fine I’ll do something else. It’s not that my life is dependent on that,” she stated.
Sharing what she learned in the last few months, she said: “For me, I believe it gave us time to look inside eh. Kasi the last five years I’ve been grinding lang like every day working non-stop, always busy, no pause. So there’s really no time to think what it is that you want and who you really are. And a lost sight of that.”
She went on: “I was busy and doing a lot of roles and I have people in my ears telling me what I should be, what I should wear. Aside from that, there are people online telling me ‘dapat hindi ganyan, dapat ganito’. You know, putting me in a mold they made for me.”
“It affected me so much that I lost myself. I didn’t know who I was, I didn’t know what I want. Parang I was just lost,” she continued.
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While Nadine’s upcoming projects have yet to be announced, her appearance in the ABS-CBN Christmas Station ID 2020 hints at the possibility of doing shows with the Kapamilya network in the future.