Ayon sa Queen of all Media na si Kris Aquino, mas tumindi ang pananalig niya sa Diyos pagkatapos ng napakaraming pagsubok na pinagdaanan sa buhay. Tanggap din niya na meron talagang mga bagay sa mundo na hindi niya kayang kontrolin.
Dalawa sa pinagdadaanan ni Kris ngayon ay may kaugnayan sa kanyang life-threatening illness at ang legal battle niya with the Facis brothers.
Sa panibagong post ni Kris sa kanyang social media account na may title na “A Declaration of Who I am now” ay mas naintindihan ng mga tao kung saan nanggagaling ang inner peace ni Kris.
“I think all of us will have a dividing line in our lives, think of it like your own B.C. and A.D. For me, the dates would have to fall between May 20 to 23, 2019… those were my last series of tests and procedures in Singapore. That would be the time I needed to survive a day when 50 vials of blood had to be taken from me in a span of 90 minutes… and the next day when I had a CT scan, and 2 MRI tests done, one with contrast dye.
“That last MRI was the scariest because no matter how brave I try to present myself to all of you, that one was to check if I had a tumor in my pituitary gland, right above my hypothalamus- yes, please review anatomy books consult the Oxford medical dictionary, or google.
“I cannot with 100% certainty say it has been smooth since then, autoimmune conditions have moments of hard to explain muscle fatigue, migraines, loss of appetite, confusion, loneliness, and yes depression.
“But I had prayed for definitive answers, and a path we could take that could ease the worst of my symptoms and give me a chance to live as close to a productive and enjoyable life as possible. And that prayer was heard.
“Along the way, I developed the habit of reading Scripture for comfort, for guidance, and for strength.
“Romans 12: CEV. 9 ‘Be sincere in your love for others. Hate everything that is evil and hold tight to everything that is good. 10 Love each other as brothers and sisters and honor others more than you do yourself. 11 Never give up. Eagerly follow the Holy Spirit and serve the Lord. 12 Let your hope make you glad. Be patient in time of trouble and never stop praying.’
“I am still far from all that I should be, but by God’s grace I am moving in the right direction- GRATEFUL for each blessing, no longer ANGRY about what I have no power to change yet firm in my resolve to fight for my TRUTH, and most of all realistic about how everything passes.
“That’s why I am taking life for just what it is, a day by day opportunity to create meaningful memories with the people who matter most to me, who deserve as much of me as they would want and need from me, and give myself to those who can make love feel effortless and uncomplicated but just as valuable and necessary as breathing, eating, and sleeping.
“I no longer want to turn back time nor go against the passing of time because each sunset I see, each star-filled sky with a visible moon I can admire, and each new day with the sun peeking through my curtains, or rainfall I hear beating against my windows means I was given another day to say THANK YOU.”
Idinagdag din ni Kris na ang halaga ng bawat desisyong kanyang ginagawa sa buhay.
“That’s why you are seeing happier uploads, because that has been a conscious decision I fought hard to be able to do with AUTHENTICITY.
“Living is my decision, laughing again is my decision, liking myself is my decision, and trusting my heart to love with no fear is my decision. And I shall live with no regrets, because FAITH in today, and HOPE for tomorrow is also my decision,” huling bahagi ng kanyang post.