Kiana Valenciano shares ‘darkest, most hidden’ thoughts

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<p>Kiana Valenciano laid herself bare before her fans and followers as she opened up about her inner fears for the first time at length this Sunday.</p><p>In a lengthy caption she penned on Instagram, the only daughter of Mr. Pure Gary Valenciano began by stating how “intimidating and outright terrifying” it is to expose her true self to a world - that is, social media - where everyone has an opinion on anything. </p><p> </p><blockquote class='instagram-media' data-instgrm-captioned='' data-instgrm-permalink='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw9Ik6egMXa/' data-instgrm-version='12' style=' background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);'><div style='padding:16px;'><div style=' display: flex; flex-direction: row; align-items: center;'><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; 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border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; height: 20px; width: 20px;'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 2px solid transparent; border-left: 6px solid #f4f4f4; border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)'> </div></div><div style='margin-left: auto;'><div style=' width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);'> </div><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);'> </div></div></div><p style=' margin:8px 0 0 0; padding:0 4px;'><a href='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw9Ik6egMXa/' style=' color:#000; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none; word-wrap:break-word;' target='_blank'>who is sheeee #Mortishhh</a></p><p style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;'>A post shared by <a href='https://www.instagram.com/kianavee/' style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px;' target='_blank'> kiana 🌙</a> (@kianavee) on <time datetime='2019-05-02T09:31:47+00:00' style=' font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px;'>May 2, 2019 at 2:31am PDT</time></p></div></blockquote><script async src='~//www.instagram.com/embed.js' type='text/javascript'></script><p> </p><p>“In this day and age it’s getting so hard to just be honest because everyone can see, hear and read anything at any time, giving them the freedom to judge you at any time... We compare ourselves to people we know and don’t know on our feeds and build personas to fit in. No wonder we’re all anxious,” she said.</p><p>Kiana also got real about her self-doubts as a musician after having hit with the realization that majority of the music she has put out is “skin deep”.</p><p>“I know that because I know the songs I write in silence that I refuse to share thanks to fear. It’s frightening to think about all the people I’m letting in on my darkest and most hidden thoughts about who I am. And it’s so easy to get lost in the never ending pressure to hit those numbers, ‘go viral’, build a following. I worry too much about what people think about me, about what’s ‘cool’, about how acting like you don’t care seems to be a great way to get by… it’s not,” she said.</p><p>Unlike what she seems online, the truth about Kiana is that she’s “super awkward” and deals with social anxiety from time to time. </p><p>“I usually need a drink to get rid of my on and off social anxiety and I noticed that the more I try to suppress that, the harder it bites back! My closest ones know this and they love me anyway so why do I care so much about what everyone else thinks?,” she continued.</p><p>The 26-year-old star concluded by leaving a reminder to everyone that it's okay to not have it all figured out. </p><p> </p><blockquote class='instagram-media' data-instgrm-captioned='' data-instgrm-permalink='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz4Byp1AvPF/' data-instgrm-version='12' style=' background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);'><div style='padding:16px;'><div style=' display: flex; flex-direction: row; align-items: center;'><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; height: 40px; margin-right: 14px; width: 40px;'> </div><div style='display: flex; flex-direction: column; flex-grow: 1; justify-content: center;'><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px; width: 100px;'> </div><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 4px; flex-grow: 0; height: 14px; width: 60px;'> </div></div></div><div style='padding: 19% 0;'> </div><div style='display:block; height:50px; margin:0 auto 12px; width:50px;'><a href='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz4Byp1AvPF/' style=' background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;' target='_blank'><svg height='50px' version='1.1' viewbox='0 0 60 60' width='50px' xmlns='https://www.w3.org/2000/svg' xmlns:xlink='https://www.w3.org/1999/xlink'><g fill='none' fill-rule='evenodd' stroke='none' stroke-width='1'><g fill='#000000' transform='translate(-511.000000, -20.000000)'><g><path d='M556.869,30.41 C554.814,30.41 553.148,32.076 553.148,34.131 C553.148,36.186 554.814,37.852 556.869,37.852 C558.924,37.852 560.59,36.186 560.59,34.131 C560.59,32.076 558.924,30.41 556.869,30.41 M541,60.657 C535.114,60.657 530.342,55.887 530.342,50 C530.342,44.114 535.114,39.342 541,39.342 C546.887,39.342 551.658,44.114 551.658,50 C551.658,55.887 546.887,60.657 541,60.657 M541,33.886 C532.1,33.886 524.886,41.1 524.886,50 C524.886,58.899 532.1,66.113 541,66.113 C549.9,66.113 557.115,58.899 557.115,50 C557.115,41.1 549.9,33.886 541,33.886 M565.378,62.101 C565.244,65.022 564.756,66.606 564.346,67.663 C563.803,69.06 563.154,70.057 562.106,71.106 C561.058,72.155 560.06,72.803 558.662,73.347 C557.607,73.757 556.021,74.244 553.102,74.378 C549.944,74.521 548.997,74.552 541,74.552 C533.003,74.552 532.056,74.521 528.898,74.378 C525.979,74.244 524.393,73.757 523.338,73.347 C521.94,72.803 520.942,72.155 519.894,71.106 C518.846,70.057 518.197,69.06 517.654,67.663 C517.244,66.606 516.755,65.022 516.623,62.101 C516.479,58.943 516.448,57.996 516.448,50 C516.448,42.003 516.479,41.056 516.623,37.899 C516.755,34.978 517.244,33.391 517.654,32.338 C518.197,30.938 518.846,29.942 519.894,28.894 C520.942,27.846 521.94,27.196 523.338,26.654 C524.393,26.244 525.979,25.756 528.898,25.623 C532.057,25.479 533.004,25.448 541,25.448 C548.997,25.448 549.943,25.479 553.102,25.623 C556.021,25.756 557.607,26.244 558.662,26.654 C560.06,27.196 561.058,27.846 562.106,28.894 C563.154,29.942 563.803,30.938 564.346,32.338 C564.756,33.391 565.244,34.978 565.378,37.899 C565.522,41.056 565.552,42.003 565.552,50 C565.552,57.996 565.522,58.943 565.378,62.101 M570.82,37.631 C570.674,34.438 570.167,32.258 569.425,30.349 C568.659,28.377 567.633,26.702 565.965,25.035 C564.297,23.368 562.623,22.342 560.652,21.575 C558.743,20.834 556.562,20.326 553.369,20.18 C550.169,20.033 549.148,20 541,20 C532.853,20 531.831,20.033 528.631,20.18 C525.438,20.326 523.257,20.834 521.349,21.575 C519.376,22.342 517.703,23.368 516.035,25.035 C514.368,26.702 513.342,28.377 512.574,30.349 C511.834,32.258 511.326,34.438 511.181,37.631 C511.035,40.831 511,41.851 511,50 C511,58.147 511.035,59.17 511.181,62.369 C511.326,65.562 511.834,67.743 512.574,69.651 C513.342,71.625 514.368,73.296 516.035,74.965 C517.703,76.634 519.376,77.658 521.349,78.425 C523.257,79.167 525.438,79.673 528.631,79.82 C531.831,79.965 532.853,80.001 541,80.001 C549.148,80.001 550.169,79.965 553.369,79.82 C556.562,79.673 558.743,79.167 560.652,78.425 C562.623,77.658 564.297,76.634 565.965,74.965 C567.633,73.296 568.659,71.625 569.425,69.651 C570.167,67.743 570.674,65.562 570.82,62.369 C570.966,59.17 571,58.147 571,50 C571,41.851 570.966,40.831 570.82,37.631'></path></g></g></g></svg></a></div><div style='padding-top: 8px;'><div style=' color:#3897f0; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:550; line-height:18px;'><a href='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz4Byp1AvPF/' style=' background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;' target='_blank'>View this post on Instagram</a></div></div><div style='padding: 12.5% 0;'> </div><div style='display: flex; flex-direction: row; margin-bottom: 14px; align-items: center;'><div><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; height: 12.5px; width: 12.5px; transform: translateX(0px) translateY(7px);'> </div><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; height: 12.5px; transform: rotate(-45deg) translateX(3px) translateY(1px); width: 12.5px; flex-grow: 0; margin-right: 14px; margin-left: 2px;'> </div><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; height: 12.5px; width: 12.5px; transform: translateX(9px) translateY(-18px);'> </div></div><div style='margin-left: 8px;'><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; height: 20px; width: 20px;'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 2px solid transparent; border-left: 6px solid #f4f4f4; border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)'> </div></div><div style='margin-left: auto;'><div style=' width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);'> </div><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);'> </div></div></div><p style=' margin:8px 0 0 0; padding:0 4px;'><a href='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz4Byp1AvPF/' style=' color:#000; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none; word-wrap:break-word;' target='_blank'>in this day and age it’s getting so hard to just be honest because everyone can see, hear and read anything at any time, giving them the freedom to judge you at any time. it’s intimidating and it’s outright terrifying. we compare ourselves to people we know and don’t know on our feeds and build personas to fit in. no wonder we’re all anxious. lately i’ve reached the realisation that majority of the music i’ve been releasing is skin deep. i know that because i know the songs i write in silence that i refuse to share thanks to fear. it’s frightening to think about all the people i’m letting in on my darkest and most hidden thoughts about who i am. and it’s so easy to get lost in the never ending pressure to hit those numbers, “go viral”, build a following. i worry too much about what people think about me, about what’s “cool”, about how acting like you don’t care seems to be a great way to get by… it’s not. i’m super awkward and usually need a drink to get rid of my on and off social anxiety and i noticed that the more i try to suppress that, the harder it bites back! my closest ones know this and they love me anyway so why do i care so much about what everyone else thinks? if you’re reading this and you didn’t just double tap and scroll, i hope you’re able to join me in my efforts to embrace my truth. (Calvin Klein ad pala #char.) remember that we’re all different, we’re all on different journeys, we don’t live perfect lives, and that’s okay. i’m constantly trying to remind myself too. we got thissssssssssss. that’s it. that’s the post. END OF RANT HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY DON’T SIN SO MUCH ✌🏽😅</a></p><p style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;'>A post shared by <a href='https://www.instagram.com/kianavee/' style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px;' target='_blank'> kiana 🌙</a> (@kianavee) on <time datetime='2019-07-13T23:30:42+00:00' style=' font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px;'>Jul 13, 2019 at 4:30pm PDT</time></p></div></blockquote><script async src='~//www.instagram.com/embed.js' type='text/javascript'></script><p> </p><p>“If you’re reading this and you didn’t just double tap and scroll, I hope you’re able to join me in my efforts to embrace my truth. Remember that we’re all different, we’re all on different journeys, we don’t live perfect lives, and that’s okay. I’m constantly trying to remind myself too. We got this,” she said.</p>

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font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:550; line-height:18px;'><a href='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw9Ik6egMXa/' style=' background:#FFFFFF; line-height:0; padding:0 0; text-align:center; text-decoration:none; width:100%;' target='_blank'>View this post on Instagram</a></div></div><div style='padding: 12.5% 0;'> </div><div style='display: flex; flex-direction: row; margin-bottom: 14px; align-items: center;'><div><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; height: 12.5px; width: 12.5px; transform: translateX(0px) translateY(7px);'> </div><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; height: 12.5px; transform: rotate(-45deg) translateX(3px) translateY(1px); width: 12.5px; flex-grow: 0; margin-right: 14px; margin-left: 2px;'> </div><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; height: 12.5px; width: 12.5px; transform: translateX(9px) translateY(-18px);'> </div></div><div style='margin-left: 8px;'><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; height: 20px; width: 20px;'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 2px solid transparent; border-left: 6px solid #f4f4f4; border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)'> </div></div><div style='margin-left: auto;'><div style=' width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);'> </div><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);'> </div></div></div><p style=' margin:8px 0 0 0; padding:0 4px;'><a href='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw9Ik6egMXa/' style=' color:#000; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none; word-wrap:break-word;' target='_blank'>who is sheeee #Mortishhh</a><p style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;'>A post shared by <a href='https://www.instagram.com/kianavee/' style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px;' target='_blank'> kiana 🌙</a> (@kianavee) on <time datetime='2019-05-02T09:31:47+00:00' style=' font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px;'>May 2, 2019 at 2:31am PDT</time></div></blockquote><script async src='~//www.instagram.com/embed.js' type='text/javascript'></script><p> <p>“In this day and age it’s getting so hard to just be honest because everyone can see, hear and read anything at any time, giving them the freedom to judge you at any time... We compare ourselves to people we know and don’t know on our feeds and build personas to fit in. No wonder we’re all anxious,” she said.<p>Kiana also got real about her self-doubts as a musician after having hit with the realization that majority of the music she has put out is “skin deep”.<p>“I know that because I know the songs I write in silence that I refuse to share thanks to fear. It’s frightening to think about all the people I’m letting in on my darkest and most hidden thoughts about who I am. And it’s so easy to get lost in the never ending pressure to hit those numbers, ‘go viral’, build a following. I worry too much about what people think about me, about what’s ‘cool’, about how acting like you don’t care seems to be a great way to get by… it’s not,” she said.<p>Unlike what she seems online, the truth about Kiana is that she’s “super awkward” and deals with social anxiety from time to time. <p>“I usually need a drink to get rid of my on and off social anxiety and I noticed that the more I try to suppress that, the harder it bites back! My closest ones know this and they love me anyway so why do I care so much about what everyone else thinks?,” she continued.<p>The 26-year-old star concluded by leaving a reminder to everyone that it's okay to not have it all figured out. <p> <blockquote class='instagram-media' data-instgrm-captioned='' data-instgrm-permalink='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz4Byp1AvPF/' data-instgrm-version='12' style=' background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:540px; min-width:326px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);'><div style='padding:16px;'><div style=' display: flex; flex-direction: row; align-items: center;'><div style='background-color: #F4F4F4; border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; height: 40px; margin-right: 14px; width: 40px;'> </div><div style='display: flex; flex-direction: column; flex-grow: 1; justify-content: center;'><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; 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border-radius: 50%; flex-grow: 0; height: 20px; width: 20px;'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 2px solid transparent; border-left: 6px solid #f4f4f4; border-bottom: 2px solid transparent; transform: translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)'> </div></div><div style='margin-left: auto;'><div style=' width: 0px; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-right: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(16px);'> </div><div style=' background-color: #F4F4F4; flex-grow: 0; height: 12px; width: 16px; transform: translateY(-4px);'> </div><div style=' width: 0; height: 0; border-top: 8px solid #F4F4F4; border-left: 8px solid transparent; transform: translateY(-4px) translateX(8px);'> </div></div></div><p style=' margin:8px 0 0 0; padding:0 4px;'><a href='https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz4Byp1AvPF/' style=' color:#000; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none; word-wrap:break-word;' target='_blank'>in this day and age it’s getting so hard to just be honest because everyone can see, hear and read anything at any time, giving them the freedom to judge you at any time. it’s intimidating and it’s outright terrifying. we compare ourselves to people we know and don’t know on our feeds and build personas to fit in. no wonder we’re all anxious. lately i’ve reached the realisation that majority of the music i’ve been releasing is skin deep. i know that because i know the songs i write in silence that i refuse to share thanks to fear. it’s frightening to think about all the people i’m letting in on my darkest and most hidden thoughts about who i am. and it’s so easy to get lost in the never ending pressure to hit those numbers, “go viral”, build a following. i worry too much about what people think about me, about what’s “cool”, about how acting like you don’t care seems to be a great way to get by… it’s not. i’m super awkward and usually need a drink to get rid of my on and off social anxiety and i noticed that the more i try to suppress that, the harder it bites back! my closest ones know this and they love me anyway so why do i care so much about what everyone else thinks? if you’re reading this and you didn’t just double tap and scroll, i hope you’re able to join me in my efforts to embrace my truth. (Calvin Klein ad pala #char.) remember that we’re all different, we’re all on different journeys, we don’t live perfect lives, and that’s okay. i’m constantly trying to remind myself too. we got thissssssssssss. that’s it. that’s the post. END OF RANT HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY DON’T SIN SO MUCH ✌🏽😅</a><p style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;'>A post shared by <a href='https://www.instagram.com/kianavee/' style=' color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px;' target='_blank'> kiana 🌙</a> (@kianavee) on <time datetime='2019-07-13T23:30:42+00:00' style=' font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px;'>Jul 13, 2019 at 4:30pm PDT</time></div></blockquote><script async src='~//www.instagram.com/embed.js' type='text/javascript'></script><p> <p>“If you’re reading this and you didn’t just double tap and scroll, I hope you’re able to join me in my efforts to embrace my truth. Remember that we’re all different, we’re all on different journeys, we don’t live perfect lives, and that’s okay. I’m constantly trying to remind myself too. We got this,” she said.

<p>Kiana Valenciano laid herself bare before her fans and followers as she opened up about her inner fears for the first time at length this Sunday.<p>In a lengthy caption she penned on Instagram, the only daughter of Mr. Pure Gary Valenciano began by stating how “intimidating and outright terrifying” it is to expose her true self to a world - that is, social media - where everyone has an opinion on anything. <p> 

Kiana Valenciano laid herself bare before her fans and followers as she opened up about her inner fears for the first time at length this Sunday.

Kiana Valenciano shares ‘darkest, most hidden’ thoughts | PUSH.COM.PH