On Tonight with Boy Abunda, Candy Pangilinan shared part of her journey to raise Quentin, her son with special needs. Candy said she blamed herself for a time after she knew Quentin was a special child. “I had to go back and check ano ba ang ginawa ko nung buntis ako.”
Asked if pregnancy really affects how a child will turn out, Candy said, “From my point of view, feeling ko meron pero sabi ng doctor ko it’s not yet proven.” Asked why this is so, Candy explained, “Because I was very stressed when I was pregnant. I was emotionally stressed and physically stressed. Feeling ko nag-a-affect yun, feeling ko nagsa-shut off ang ibang parts ng brain ng bata.”
She further said, “pag nalaman mo ang anak mo may special needs kailangan merong dahilan e… so nung time na yun ang feeling ko kasalanan ko ‘to. Baka kasi masyado akong nagpaapekto sa pa-love life ko kaya emotional ako…”
Candy wanted to punish herself for what happened but then her doctor told her to focus on the solution. Candy also did not blame God. “I never questioned God. As a matter of fact I went to him.”
Candy admitted that she is also not getting any support from Quentin’s father. “No. I don't know where he is.” Candy said that for a time they had communication because she sued him for child support. But the case stopped because as Candy puts it, “Inisip ko kasi pambayad ko na lang sa therapy, kesa ibayad ko pa sa lawyer.”
Asked if she’s still angry with him, Candy said no. “Kasi na-realize ko, pag ako nagngingitngit, ako lang naapektuhan.” And as her spiritual adviser told her, “Forgiveness is freedom.”
Candy’s beautiful journey with Quentin is in the book Mommy dear: Our Special Love, written by Candy.