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Rica Peralejo on her miscarriage: ‘Parang ayoko na mabuntis’

Rica Peralejo talks about moving on from the traumatic experience.

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Rhea Manila Santos

Twitter: @allaboutmanila

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03/31/2016 10:01 AM
Rica Peralejo on her miscarriage: ‘Parang ayoko na mabuntis’
033119-Rica.jpgAfter laying low from acting for the past five years, Rica Peralejo admitted she never imagined she would transition from performer to blogger and celebrity host. "It’s different. It’s really different but I’m enjoying it. I didn’t expect it kasi hindi ko naman siya plano talaga. I didn’t know that when I was starting Instagram and Twitter that it was eventually going to be a big thing pala. So I’m also enjoying the opportunity with communities kasi you get to meet a lot of other people who are not like you and parang it generates conversation as well as yung information that you may not have encountered on your own,” she shared during the GSK Expert Mom launch event held last March 30 in Makati city.

Earlier this month, Rica shared that she had found out she had a miscarriage after an almost two-month pregnancy. "I found out March 1 so parang almost a month ago. Very recent talaga siya. I think it leaves a trauma talaga. Like what I said in my blog, death is death. It’s not like you just lost a piece of clothing or your camera, you lost a human life. So that’s what makes it traumatic eh, na of course you don’t want that to happen to you again,” she admitted.

The 35-year-old host said writing about it in her blog also helped with the healing process. "But I’m just glad because I think what happened to me parang somehow naging voice din siya when I aired it. Ang dami palang may issue about this. So they started commenting on my blog and I was like, ‘Wow, so many people are going through this’ and it’s just a side of motherhood that that not a lot of moms are vocal about. So I’m just glad that God was able to use me to minister comfort to other people. Kasi minsan that’s all you need, someone who’s just going to tell you na, ‘You know it happened to me too and I know what you’re going through,” she added.

The GSK Expert Mom admitted she went through a period of feeling low before she could go back to her normal routine. “Siguro parang the past five days have been great. I finally feel like I’m ready to work again. Yung I can feel the cheer coming back into my life. Nawala kasi siya for a time na parang it’s just so hard, you’re just going through the motions of your everyday life but na-fi-feel mo talaga na mabigat. The past five days masasabi ko na bumalik na siya. Of course there’s still longing in my heart. I still sometimes get sad but it’s not like I’m depressed or anything like that. I think I’m okay. I’m at that season of my life na I’m in that phase of this whole ordeal na umo-okay na talaga ako. I think work also helps because you’re surrounded by people who are normal, yung you don’t want to be surrounded by people who just want to talk about that all day so at least may purpose ako na I can get to be with other people, learn more stuff,” she shared.

Rica also credited her family for the love and support they gave her during this time. "It’s a mix of a lot of things eh. I think being married to a really good man helps to have the kind of faith that they have. I keep saying that I’m so glad that this happened to me only after I’ve really focused on my faith and really have gotten to know God. Kasi kung wala yun parang hindi ko talaga alam kung paano ko siya dadaanan,” she said.

Finding solace with her two-year-old son Philip, Rica said she was hoping to actually have a brood of five. "Sa totoo lang gusto ko mga lima (laughs). kaya lang parang ang bagal so sabi ko,Sige Lord bigyan mo nga ako ng triplets para isang ganun na lang!’” she joked. But Rica admitted it’s not the right time for them to start planning for another baby. "It’s too soon. Actually nung una sobrang takot ako. it was one of the effects na parang ayoko na mabuntis, yung ganyan. Kasi parang may fear talaga sa iyo na what if it happens again. All of these lies in my head and then everyone was telling me to just give it time. So I was patient with myself. I gave it time and then one time hinawakan ng little boy ko yung tummy ko and sabi niya, ‘I want to see baby!.’ Eh usually naiyak ako pag sinasabi niya, ‘I’m kuya Philip. This is Philip kuya.’ That’s when I thought, ‘You know what, the baby is not just for me. The next baby is going to be for his siblings, his family, his parents, this nation.’ Whatever God has placed on that child’s life, he has meaning than just being the joy of his mother. So naisip ko this makes me ready. I mean I don’t think I’m 100% ready but it’s one step closer na sige I’m willing to go through it again,” she admitted.