On Tonight with Boy Abunda, an emotional Mariel Rodriguez-Padilla broke her silence on the multiple miscarriages she’s been through.
“I can say that I’ve been through different levels of pain. I dealt with it differently each time. The first time it happened it was (talking about the miscarriage) March. I thought that it was the most painful thing that has ever happened to me. Because finally when I was ready, finally when I decided I’m ready to do this, I want to have a baby, then it (the miscarriage) happened,” Mariel opened up.
The emotions that Mariel went through were like an emotional rollercoaster ride. “You were excited, you were happy, that you were ready. And then it’s not for you.”
Mariel admitted to have battled depression because of what she went through. “Yun talaga, nag-breakdown na ako. I was really going to lose it already. I was about to go dark. I was bitter. I was not in a good place. And then Robin took me out of the country and he reassured me that the world would be okay even if it was just the two of us. He was able to make something bad, positive. Nafeel ko pa rin na blessed ako, Tito Boy.”
Despite everything, Mariel said she isvery thankful for having a very supportive and loving husband. She shared, “I’m so blessed Tito Boy kasi si Robin was really very supportive. Yun talaga siguro sabihin natin na hindi ako sinwerte na magkaroon ng anak ngayon pero sobra akong swerte sa asawa. Sobra akong swerte, sobrang bait niya sa akin. Sobra niya akong inilagaan, most especially dito sa second time that it happened to us. This one was even more because I had multiple pregnancies, Tito Boy. It was either twins or triplets. So sabi ko wow, siguro kasi na-miscarriage ako dati kaya pinalitan ni God, sabi ko, ‘ito na yun!’ Or kung mawawala yung iba, meroon akong isa na matitira. Tapos I had one with a heartbeat, Tito Boy, so I was really hoping, and then I lost the heartbeat.”
“I don’t even ask for it (a baby) anymore, I don’t, I don’t. I’m not expecting, I’m way past it. It was really the acceptance that there was something wrong with me. It’s very hard for a woman na there’s something wrong with you, di ba? And you don’t know what’s wrong with you.”
Somehow, Mariel has managed to move past such an ordeal. “It’s true na yung sinasabi nila na what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger. Dati pag tinatanong ako, kumusta marriage niyo ni Robin, lagi lang akong ‘we’re good, we’re good,’ kasi wala kaming pinagdaanan na something na kaming mag-asawa. Ito, meron kami nito. He let me go out with my friends, he said, ‘o pumunta ka sa Singapore, go with your friends kailangan mo yan para positive vibes kayo.’”
In behalf of those who’ve been wondering, the host asked, “Bakit si Mariel two weeks ago lang nagpa-raspa?”
“I really wanted it to go naturally. For a time, I was holding on to it. I was holding on to it. I had pictures when we went abroad na tinitingnan ko, sabi ko sana tunay na baby bump siya. Sana nagkamali si doctora nang diagnosis sa akin. Sana magkaroon ng miracle. Sabi ko noon na, God has the last say, he has the last say. I wanted to let it go naturally. Malay mo, he’ll pull a Mother Mary on me, and he will give it life. So I let it be. Talagang nagagalit na sa akin doctor ko, Tito Boy. Sabi niya sa akin, ako daw ang bukod tangi na patient niya na pinakamatagal na may blighted ovum na nasa akin pa rin. So sabi ko, sige. Finally, I did it. It was like my babies didn’t want to leave me because when I did it the first time this year, mabilis - the second day, kaagad, nag-bleed na ako. Tito Boy, (ngayon) ang tagal-tagal ko, Tuesday ako nandoon. Saturday na ako nakaalis. Talagang ayaw, I didn’t bleed, ayaw mag-open ng cervix,” Mariel shared.
With everything that has happened, Mariel still managed to rise above such hardship with profound strength. “Hindi lang dapat during bad times mo lang pinupuntahan si God. Lagi na akong nagpapasalamat kay God, and hindi ako ma-‘God’ so mas naa-appreciate ko talaga. Mas malaki naging impact niya sa akin.
“I’m so happy, Tito Boy. I think that’s one thing I’m really grateful for kasi nakahanap pa rin ako ng rason na maging masaya. Marami pa ring reasons – I’m still so blessed, Tito Boy.”