For Charice, being part of the local showbiz industry is one tough battle. The international singing sensation spoke at length about feeling unappreciated and unloved in her mother country on her Instagram account last September 27.
“Eto lang nasa isip ko ng ilang taon na hehe. Ang showbiz dito sa Pilipinas, mahirap. Di ko alam ang status ko kung mahal ba ako ng sarili kong bansa o kailangan ko paring i-prove yung sarili ko?” Charice started.
The young singer, who started her career in a local talent competition in 2005 made waves abroad with appearances on American shows, some international hits, and sold-out concerts in and outside the country. She questioned that her achievements seemed insufficient for some.
“Sa ilang taon na nagta-trabaho ako, hindi man kasing tagal ng ibang idols niyo, mahirap pa rin yung pinagdaanan ko. Nakikipag-sapalaran sa bansang di ko naman kinalakihan. Napasama ako sa mga malalaking TV shows pero pagdating ko dito, iba pa rin ang hinahanap sa akin, iba pa rin ang nilalait sa akin. Pananalita ko, itsura ko, mga sinusuot ko, buhok ko, sekswalidad ko, buhay ko, lahat na,” Charice said. Charice came out as a lesbian which led to her having a spat with her mother Raquel Pempengco which has thankfully been resolved lately.
Charice even added that she was often deemed arrogant for making it big abroad and that she was insulted “kasi daw mali-mali Ingles ko.” What’s worse is that, “May oras na puro laman ng news ay halos issues kaysa sa achievements na nakukuha ko.”
These incidents, according to Charice, has led her to become reclusive to some people saying that, “Kaya kung minsan, nandun yung oras na, parang may wall ako sa harap ko. Straight lang mukha ko. Kasi ayoko na nung time na inaapi at pinagtatawanan ako. Gusto ko may respeto kahit kaunti.”
Yet amid all the things she has experienced and is continuously experiencing in showbiz and from her bashers, Charice remains strong because of the people who genuinely love and support her.
However, despite being surrounded by such people, she admitted that she remains guarded especially whenever she performs because “Aminin natin na pag kumakanta na ako dito, nakakatakot buksan ang ibang social networks. Ang daming bully.”
In the end, the singer who will be seen on Oprah Winfrey’s show next month, wondered out loud if she would be getting the same kind of treatment if she were an entirely different person.
“Eto joke ito sa isip ko, natatawa ako pag iniisip pero medyo totoo din; Minsan iniisip ko, kung kamukha kaya ako ng isa sa pinaka-gwapong artista ngayon, tapos same achievements, iba kaya ang trato?” she ended.