Janelle Manahan says she has no intention of destroying the family of her boyfriend Ramgen Revilla, but vows to seek justice for his death whatever it takes.
In an exclusive tell-all interview with The Buzz
, Janelle Manahan recounted the night of Ramgen Revilla's murder and how she survived the tragedy by staying calm and asking for God's help and forgiveness. Although she was worried of Ramgen's critical condition, she had high hopes that he would make it through because he's a natural-born fighter. Janelle recalled that she didn't know that her boyfriend of five years passed a way until a visitor accidentally told her about it, a week after the tragedy.
"A visitor went there. Akala niya alam ko. Nasabi po
[sa akin]. Hindi ko na napigilan
. I started crying. Pero ako, nung
time na yun
, everyday ko silang tinatanong.
I was kinda feeling it na rin, kasi hindi sila sumasagot. Nagdra
-drive siya ng
car niya, hinatid niya ako sa bahay nila.
I was wearing the hospital gown na
. And then pagsakay niya, ang sabi lang niya sa akin, 'Ang swerte mo
, you're given another chance to live'. Tapos
after that time nagising na ako.
But to this day, Janelle admitted that it's still hard to accept that Ramgen is gone. It was as if she's still in denial stage, especially because she's hardly by herself and has no chance to grieve his death alone. "Until now hindi pa rin nagsink
in. Feeling ko nagbakasyon lang siya
It's really hard for me na wala siya. Sobrang
part siya ng buhay ko
and I hoped na
in the future kasama ko siya. Gusto ko siya makausap. Yun ang lagi ko prine-
pray every night na kahit sana sa
dream makausap ko siya. Kasi ang dami kong gustong sabihin sa kanya. Kasi parang sa sarili ko dine-
deny ko na wala na siya. Kasi ayoko masaktan. Pero gusto ko na siya ma-
feel para at least makapag-
start na rin ako makapag-
move forward," Janelle tearfully told Boy Abunda.
As difficult as it is, Janelle vowed that she will do whatever it takes to bring justice to his death. "Gusto ko tulungan niya ako sa
case, kasi ayoko rin pong nasasaktan yung
family niya. Gusto ko sabihin sa kanya na
thank you kasi
he taught me a lot of things. He's one of the reason kung bakit ako naging
strong. Gusto ko magpasalamat sa kanya sa lahat
. Gusto ko rin sabihin sa kanya na
I love you for the last time kasi hindi ko po nasabi yun
. I want him to know na hindi nasayang yung
life niya kahit ganon yung naging
ending. I'm gonna fight for him."
Janelle also gave a message to Ramgen's mom, Genelyn Bautista, saying that she has no intention of destroying their family by being a witness to the murder case. As it is, Jannelle has recently submitted an affidavit, confirming the family's deep family rift and establishes the motive for the siblings to conspire with each other. The said affidavit also includes a statement from Janelle, saying that Genelyn had been diagnosed as "schizophrenic", which is why Ramgen is in charge of the family household. "Hindi ko siya gustong saktan. Kung yung mga sinabi ko, wala sa intensyon ko na saktan siya
or yung pamilya nila
or sirain sila. Gusto ko lang po talaga mahanap yung
justice for me and for Ram."
If anything, she hopes that they will convince Ramona Bautista to come home and help shed light to what really happened the night of Ramgen's murder. "Gusto ko sana na,
honestly, pauwin po nila si
Mara. Kasi yun
g statements namin
...I want to clarify things. I want to clarify things kung bakit ganon.